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Friday, September 9, 2011

so everyone is thinking major catastrophe and I just think I'm happy

I know this is the tenth year anniversary of 9/11 but my kids all are in college and I am living alone except for mittle pets and just moved to a newer condo community with a heated pool, a good gym, right on an ecological park so I hear no sirens, can bike to the grocery, and my daily housework just shrunk to zero, So I'm happy. Granted, I do live in one of the worst economic communities in the country but it's in the subtropics so I don't have ice and snow to deal with and it's pretty here all year around. The only bummer thing going on for me and even that is not so bad is that a guy I'd been seeing on a fairly regularly basis for nearly ten years just sent me a text message dumping me the night before my 49th birthday. I guess that was supposed to hurt my feelings but seeing as how we maybe went to a movie once a once or out to dinner that often, and never on the weekends as he gets stuck babysitting grandkids that his son has created with several women and so I never have a weekend date.
We hadn't gone ANYWHERE, I mean not even out of the county, let alone on a weekend vacation or ever hone or a trip or done anything at all for atleast the past six or seven years. My kids dad doesn't help out with child support very much and with our economy so bad, I did whatever this guy wanted on whatever terms he demanded so that he would help me pay the electric bill so we'd have electricity and to buy my kids presents at Christmas. But other than that, I pretty much decided that being a paid prostitute to an ugly man who treated me like crap was the best choice I had to support my family,a nd I did what I had to do and was glad to have the occasional financial help as otherwise,we would've been homeless on several occasions,
And I hated it, and i hated my ex-husband for not helping to support our children and that I didn't want to relccate them during their high school years for a shot at a better job market  The damage to them woud not be worth whatever I would earn in salary, so I just made the best  of a bad situation and tolerated it for all those years. But now they are in college, I got a roommate to keep housing costs down and am done the service woman for fairly mean and selfish guy, and now thats over and i will get by and can actually date. so yippee for me!